Yet, I feel like my 24 year old self inside, unsure of myself. You'd think as you grow older you get past this kinda things. I guess the feelings and their intensity don't change. You just get better at dealing with them. Or pretending otherwise.
Makes me wonder how my own parents felt when they faced such things when I was a kid. Because to me, they were always the most solid and stable thing in my life whenever something went wrong.
And I guess that what I am to my kids now. As much as I tell them about how uncertain somethings are and how I myself can't be completely sure of things, I will always be that one of two steady things in their lives that will always be there when everything else seems wrong, to help make everything right again for them.
Also this was rather interesting because i intended it to just be a one or two liner but somehow i got a few paragraphs in instead. i guess i have been neglecting writing like this to allow myself the freedom to express my thoughts and let them develop as i type it all out. Where did this part of me go all these years? probably because i was lazy to turn on my laptop or something hahaha. oh wells.
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