I tried

 Helping myself. I only felt empty. 

I’m having a hard time

But its ok. I’ll figure it out by myself. 

My solution

 Avoid everything that makes me horny. 

Also I think it is only normal to have to express and process my feelings. Doesnt mean I shouldnt be told stuff. I am not a robot. 

Arousal

 Porn just doesnt do it for me anymore. I dont know why. 

What does turn me on is you. All the time. 

Aaarrrggghhhh

 Stuck in a mental loop again. 

Why cant I get over it.