Work

 Every time I come to work, it feels like i'm losing that joy to be here.

R2 guys mentioned abt a few duties ago when i was taking over.

I dont look like i have the spark of happiness i always have in my face.

now its just like "i'm here lets just get this over with minimal problems ok guys?"

but nothing has really changed with the work itself.

i think its really the people you work with.

and the last batch of ppl i had the honour of leading were a great bunch of very nonsense and silly guys who would still be serious when needed to be. 

the guys i'm with now aren't bad to be clear.

but i feel that their zest for life is being stifled and i feel it too.

it would be so easy to just pinpoint it to one things, but i think its a mix of many things. though with that said, that one thing is clearly one of the main reasons haha.

ah well, we see how things go. feels like i'm finding my stride again in the bigger picture.

would you be ok if i never became anything more than a captain?