unijade

hey,

i know its been awhile since that day. and things haven't really been the same. i was browsing through my computer and i stumbled upon some stuff from the time slightly before that. the letters, the photos. and i started thinking again on that day, that period of time of why i did what i did. and honestly speaking, i really dont know what drove me to it. i mean i had mentally talked to myself before, telling myself it was the speed at which things were going, the level of commitment required, the big change in the way i would live.... but now that i think about it again. they seem like really lame excuses. i dunno. i guess you could say i was afraid. afraid of what? hmmm.. the unknown? cause this would be going into territory that would be very very unfamiliar to either of us. and i dont think i have the courage to do something like that. not yet. still though, i wish things didnt turn out the way it did. i wish things would be the way it was before. oh wells, i dont even know if you still read this. even if you did though, i doubt this would be enough for you. but still, at least it got read.

talk to ya soon.

@_@~ oro?!?!